Alone [album]

by Otan Vargas

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released December 15, 2009

Alone with his acoustic guitar and indescribable melancholic voice, the theme of the album centers in the anonymous feeling of desertion, but Otan Vargas' music differs in that it enigmatically brings sanguinity despite of its evoking sadness.

Recorded at Hole in the Ground Studios in Long Island, NY 2009

2009 Otan Vargas Debut Album

Music & Lyrics by Otan Vargas


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Todd Poulson, Ginnie Faraci, Shawn Maloney, Domenico Grande, Aaron Hollan and Martin Kresinske for their friendship and their tremendous amount of support on Patreon!

Thank you to my friends and fans who has been supporting me on Patreon for more than a year, thank you for believing in what I do,
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Otan Vargas’ appeal is found in his deep gravelly vocals backed by brooding bass lines. A powerful simplistic combination layered with candid lyrics.

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Track Name: Insanity
Turn out the lights I'm blinded by this insanity
The sun doesn't shine I cannot see through this life
I cannot move on I don't want to stay here all alone
Darkness inside me please be gone

You left me I'm drowning
You left me I don't know which way to go
You left me I cannot take this stain away from my chest

I cannot take this stain away you left me with scar that I can't erase
I cannot take this stain away I wish that these sufferings just fade

You don't see me staring at your face
Cause you're swallowed by pride and apathy
If only I could get out of your cage
All these lies and dark thoughts bring me pain

You left me I'm drowning
You left me I don't know which way to go
You left me I cannot take this stain away from my chest

I cannot take this stain away you left me with scar that I can't erase
I cannot take this stain away I wish that these sufferings just fade

But you turn out the lights now I'm blinded by this insanity
Track Name: Today
I don't care who's right just separate me from the fire
I cannot take this over again

Today I will go away today
Today I will leave it all behind today

I don't know who I am but I'm living with your name
You forced me to see all the violence and rage that I carry inside me

Today I will go away today
Today I will leave it all behind today

And I feel this everyday no matter how I try it never goes away
And I tried to stay away from all the tensions that you gave me but the agony remains

Today I will go away today
Today I will leave it all behind today

I don't care who's right
Track Name: Gravel
I tried not to express all these thoughts I hide for years
Slowly losing all my faith I'm still living in this world of hate

Receive it I cant take it gravel voices inside my head

Curses that you set and all the damage that you left
Everything is so unreal I wish they'd all just disappear

Receive it I cant take it gravel voices inside my head
Receive it I cant take it I know these vices cant kill this pain

Because of you I'm all alone I don't want to go back home
Because of you I'm all alone I don't want to go back home

Whispering your name behind this window pane
I cannot stop this rain everything I've done was all in vain

Receive it I cant take it gravel voices inside my head
Receive it I cant take it I know these vices cant kill this pain

Because of you I'm all alone I don't want to go back home
Because of you I'm all alone I don't want to go back home

Receive it I cant take this gravel voices inside my head
Track Name: Wear My Chains
Enter this life where I'm hiding everything I feel so cold under the sun
I want to leave before I'm gone why can't I clean these dirty hands

Wear my pain wear my fears there's nothing left that I can change wear my chains

Save me from myself I cannot live with all these sorrows
I sold my soul to save myself I'm so afraid of my tomorrow

Wear my pain wear my fears there's nothing left that I can change wear my chains
Track Name: Alone
Alone deep in the dark I hide all my sorrows from you
I tried to cover this pain that flows through my veins all this time

I'm slowly decaying
My head is fading
I feel like I'm bleeding
I'm down and forsaken

I bear all this hate my heart is begging to fade
But I stayed kept looking and found that nobody stands by my side

I'm slowly decaying
My head is fading
I feel like I'm bleeding
I'm down and forsaken

The pressure I kept inside I'm totally drowning I cannot take this anymore
This tension hate and anger vanquish my life all alone

I'll break all of your rules I have to be free from your chains
But I'm lost nowhere to go no one to blame but my own

I'm slowly decaying
My head is fading
I feel like I'm bleeding
I'm down and forsaken

The pressure I kept inside I'm totally drowning I cannot take this anymore
This tension hate and anger vanquish my life all alone

Nothing has changed
Everything remains the same
I'm left here and bounded
By this hatred forever

The pressure I kept inside I'm totally drowning I cannot take this anymore
This tension hate and anger vanquish my life all alone

It's late I know its the end but I'm back from where I begun
Track Name: Unclean
I'm waiting outside the door
I don't know why am I still here
I want to tell you everything right now
But I don't know if you would hear me

Help me I'm so afraid they pushed me away
Help me they won't let me in I feel so unclean

It's hard for me to understand
The life they gave me is not in my hands
It's hard to find someone who cares
Cause every time I fall nobody's there

Help me I'm so afraid they pushed me away
Help me they wont let me in I feel so unclean

I feel isolated and rejected from everything they do
They don't see me they don't need me
I feel separated and neglected nobody cares but you
Please don't leave me you said you need me
Track Name: Contaminated
What happened do you remember me
All the things I've said do you believed in me
And now I don't know where to start over again
You've waste it all now I feel nothing
I'm nothing I'm nothing

I am your healing
Trying to keep you away

So you chose too conceal in vain
But there's no place to hide that never ending shame
And now there's nothing left your life is disarray
You've waste it all now I feel nothing
I'm nothing I'm nothing

I am your healing
Trying to keep you away

From this world of contamination
The lie inside they feed you
From this world of contamination
The lie inside that feeds you

I am your healing
Trying to keep you away

From yourself
Track Name: Blame
Burning in my frame images that I created
From all the madness I had made
Too much shade inside my head
Too much love it causes hate
I gave everything to you

But who's to blame who's to blame

You simply put out the fire and led me into the night
But all the things you've said and done left a hole inside my brain
I don't mean much in your life like a flower to your grave
Forgive me I can't hide

But who's to blame who's to blame
Track Name: A Place
Bitterness inside of me there's no place to run
Endlessness of this misery slowly breaking me down

It's raining and I'm walking by myself
It's hard to penetrate in your heart I don't have a place

I'm dragging my soul out from this wreckage that you left
But I can't get out here you buried me along with all these memories

It's raining and I'm walking by myself
It's hard to penetrate in your heart I don't have a place

Can you hear me cause all this time I try to hide this from you
Can you see there's nothing left but you

It's raining and I'm walking by myself
It's hard to penetrate in your heart I don't have a place
Track Name: Cloudless Sky
Cloudless sky that I never seem to find
Emptiness inside that I can never hide

I threw my life away
I threw my life away

Trying to find a constant peace for my soul
On this road I chose where I am bound to lose

I threw my life away
I threw my life away

Can't follow me
Can't follow me
Can't follow me
Track Name: Without You
Nobody knows how I feel deep down inside
Surrounded by hatred and lies but it's your words that flow inside

Without you I'm not here
Without you I can't see myself
Without you I can't feel
Without you my life would still be the same

I once was lost in this empty world but now I found myself through you
Continue to fight continue to lose but I still believe in you

Without you I'm not here
Without you I can't see myself
Without you I can't feel
Without you my life would still be the same

So I want to say this to you before you go
Cause I don't know if I would have another chance to say

Without you I'm not here
Without you I can't see myself
Without you I can't feel
Without you my life would still be the same