1. |
Insanity
05:28
|
|
||
Turn out the lights I'm blinded by this insanity
The sun doesn't shine I cannot see through this life
I cannot move on I don't want to stay here all alone
Darkness inside me please be gone
You left me I'm drowning
You left me I don't know which way to go
You left me I cannot take this stain away from my chest
I cannot take this stain away you left me with scar that I can't erase
I cannot take this stain away I wish that these sufferings just fade
You don't see me staring at your face
Cause you're swallowed by pride and apathy
If only I could get out of your cage
All these lies and dark thoughts bring me pain
You left me I'm drowning
You left me I don't know which way to go
You left me I cannot take this stain away from my chest
I cannot take this stain away you left me with scar that I can't erase
I cannot take this stain away I wish that these sufferings just fade
But you turn out the lights now I'm blinded by this insanity
|
||||
2. |
Today
04:17
|
|
||
I don't care who's right just separate me from the fire
I cannot take this over again
Today I will go away today
Today I will leave it all behind today
I don't know who I am but I'm living with your name
You forced me to see all the violence and rage that I carry inside me
Today I will go away today
Today I will leave it all behind today
And I feel this everyday no matter how I try it never goes away
And I tried to stay away from all the tensions that you gave me but the agony remains
Today I will go away today
Today I will leave it all behind today
I don't care who's right
|
||||
3. |
Gravel
05:21
|
|
||
I tried not to express all these thoughts I hide for years
Slowly losing all my faith I'm still living in this world of hate
Receive it I cant take it gravel voices inside my head
Curses that you set and all the damage that you left
Everything is so unreal I wish they'd all just disappear
Receive it I cant take it gravel voices inside my head
Receive it I cant take it I know these vices cant kill this pain
Because of you I'm all alone I don't want to go back home
Because of you I'm all alone I don't want to go back home
Whispering your name behind this window pane
I cannot stop this rain everything I've done was all in vain
Receive it I cant take it gravel voices inside my head
Receive it I cant take it I know these vices cant kill this pain
Because of you I'm all alone I don't want to go back home
Because of you I'm all alone I don't want to go back home
Receive it I cant take this gravel voices inside my head
|
||||
4. |
Wear My Chains
04:52
|
|||
Enter this life where I'm hiding everything I feel so cold under the sun
I want to leave before I'm gone why can't I clean these dirty hands
Wear my pain wear my fears there's nothing left that I can change wear my chains
Save me from myself I cannot live with all these sorrows
I sold my soul to save myself I'm so afraid of my tomorrow
Wear my pain wear my fears there's nothing left that I can change wear my chains
|
||||
5. |
Alone
05:49
|
|
||
Alone deep in the dark I hide all my sorrows from you
I tried to cover this pain that flows through my veins all this time
I'm slowly decaying
My head is fading
I feel like I'm bleeding
I'm down and forsaken
I bear all this hate my heart is begging to fade
But I stayed kept looking and found that nobody stands by my side
I'm slowly decaying
My head is fading
I feel like I'm bleeding
I'm down and forsaken
The pressure I kept inside I'm totally drowning I cannot take this anymore
This tension hate and anger vanquish my life all alone
I'll break all of your rules I have to be free from your chains
But I'm lost nowhere to go no one to blame but my own
I'm slowly decaying
My head is fading
I feel like I'm bleeding
I'm down and forsaken
The pressure I kept inside I'm totally drowning I cannot take this anymore
This tension hate and anger vanquish my life all alone
Nothing has changed
Everything remains the same
I'm left here and bounded
By this hatred forever
The pressure I kept inside I'm totally drowning I cannot take this anymore
This tension hate and anger vanquish my life all alone
It's late I know its the end but I'm back from where I begun
|
||||
6. |
Unclean
03:57
|
|
||
I'm waiting outside the door
I don't know why am I still here
I want to tell you everything right now
But I don't know if you would hear me
Help me I'm so afraid they pushed me away
Help me they won't let me in I feel so unclean
It's hard for me to understand
The life they gave me is not in my hands
It's hard to find someone who cares
Cause every time I fall nobody's there
Help me I'm so afraid they pushed me away
Help me they wont let me in I feel so unclean
I feel isolated and rejected from everything they do
They don't see me they don't need me
I feel separated and neglected nobody cares but you
Please don't leave me you said you need me
|
||||
7. |
Contaminated
03:51
|
|
||
What happened do you remember me
All the things I've said did you believe in me
And now I don't know where to start over again
You've waste it all now I feel nothing
I'm nothing I'm nothing
I am your healing
Trying to keep you away
So you chose too conceal in vain
But there's no place to hide that never ending shame
And now there's nothing left your life is disarray
You've waste it all now I feel nothing
I'm nothing I'm nothing
I am your healing
Trying to keep you away
From this world of contamination
The lie inside they feed you
From this world of contamination
The lie inside that feeds you
I am your healing
Trying to keep you away
I am your healing
Trying to keep you away
From yourself
|
||||
8. |
Blame
03:08
|
|
||
Burning in my frame images that I created
From all the madness I had made
Too much shade inside my head
Too much love it causes hate
I gave everything to you
But who's to blame who's to blame
You simply put out the fire and led me into the night
But all the things you've said and done left a hole inside my brain
I don't mean much in your life like a flower to your grave
Forgive me I can't hide
But who's to blame who's to blame
|
||||
9. |
A Place
06:27
|
|
||
Bitterness inside of me there's no place to run
Endlessness of this misery slowly breaking me down
It's raining and I'm walking by myself
It's hard to penetrate in your heart I don't have a place
I'm dragging my soul out from this wreckage that you left
But I can't get out here you buried me along with all these memories
It's raining and I'm walking by myself
It's hard to penetrate in your heart I don't have a place
Can you hear me cause all this time I try to hide this from you
Can you see there's nothing left but you
It's raining and I'm walking by myself
It's hard to penetrate in your heart I don't have a place
|
||||
10. |
Cloudless Sky
04:25
|
|
||
Cloudless sky that I never seem to find
Emptiness inside that I can never hide
I threw my life away
I threw my life away
Trying to find a constant peace for my soul
On this road I chose where I am bound to lose
I threw my life away
I threw my life away
Can't follow me
Can't follow me
Can't follow me
|
||||
11. |
Without You
05:00
|
|
||
Nobody knows how I feel deep down inside
Surrounded by hatred and lies but it's your words that flow inside
Without you I'm not here
Without you I can't see myself
Without you I can't feel
Without you my life would still be the same
I once was lost in this empty world but now I found myself through you
Continue to fight continue to lose but I still believe in you
Without you I'm not here
Without you I can't see myself
Without you I can't feel
Without you my life would still be the same
So I want to say this to you before you go
Cause I don't know if I would have another chance to say
Without you I'm not here
Without you I can't see myself
Without you I can't feel
Without you my life would still be the same
|
Otan Vargas New York, New York
Otan Vargas writes songs about man’s struggle, sorrow and pain and finding the strength to continue on. What started out simply as a means of personal therapy for himself has transformed into an inspirational beacon for adoring fans worldwide.
Streaming and Download help
If you like Otan Vargas, you may also like:
Bandcamp Daily your guide to the world of Bandcamp